All week I have been anxious and fearful about my follow up appointment with the oncologist today. I’m disgusted with myself for the way I have allowed my health to get out of control. But I know we live in a system that sets us up for health disasters, and it seems that only the ones with really great genes can survive it. Yes, my grandma died of metastatic breast cancer in her 30s, but that does not mean I HAD TO get it. My poor lifestyle choices including stress and unresolved emotional issues most likely turned on that disposition to cancer. I think a big part of my healing will come when I let that go and stop beating myself up for letting it get this far – incurable, as the medical world calls it. “Nothing is impossible for God,” is the Truth.
I’ve had incessant, angry conversations in my head about confronting my oncologist about the poisonous Tamoxifen I am stuck on. I wanted to be bold about TELLING him I will be weaned off of it. I had just finished my Zometa infusion treatment earlier in the week and felt that fueling the animosity within me over the destructive conventional cancer treatments. Thanks to God, a close friend offered to come with me today and her quiet support was beautiful. By the grace of God I very calmly and respectfully threw it out there: “I would like to decrease my Tamoxifen.” “To what?” the oncologist quickly retorted. “Well, I know they have a 10 mg tablet. Can I have that?” The entire atmosphere changed and my oncologist appeared hostile. He was swift to say he does not recommend it and we continued in a lengthy discussion about. I probably should not have told him I already asked the pharmacist if it was possible to cut the 20 mg pills in half (yep, she asked me why I wanted to do that). Matter of fact, I was told that when I do cut them in half to make sure nobody else comes into contact with even the slightest amount of the dust from the cut pill. What?!? And I am taking this poison?!? If you are being told you have to go on Tamoxifen, please do a ton of research. You don’t have to hurry up and start popping the pills as soon as your doctor tells you you have to take it. Do your research. I am completely convinced there is a better way to address all your issues relative to a cancer diagnosis, but it will take hard work and discipline. Most don’t want to change and are more comfortable just having the doctor do whatever he desires to “help” them. Keep in mind that cancer is mostly a lifestyle thing, not a random genetic thing. You CAN avoid it. You CAN prevent it. And you CAN do something to completely defeat it.
I picked up my current monthly drug supply for both the cancer and my allergy/asthma problem. My insurance pays 100% How nice. I added up the total minus the fast-acting inhaler and realized my drug dependency costs $529.69 a month! And that’s not even including all the cancer treatment which I am sure is in the hundred thousand dollar range. America does not have a healthcare crisis, it has a health crisis. We are not receiving healthcare no matter how great our insurance is, we are receiving SICKcare and need to address the root issue of our crisis. We, not the medical professionals, are responsible for our own healthcare. It’s time we wake up and get off drugs.
It will probably take me a year to very cautiously wean off the Tamoxifen, but I want to do it right. It’s such a horrible drug that should not be experimented on people. And I know I don’t need the asthma drugs. I believe my body has just become dependent on them, so that is another wean project coming up. I have made a lot of changes in my lifestyle such as juicing, staying away from processed foods and refined sugar, eating whole foods, exercising daily, and supplementing. I’ve already had my Advair inhaler reduced to the lowest dose since making these changes and my allergies are no longer a snot-extreme, debilitating mess. I’ve suffered for 20 years with candida because my allergist put me on continual dosages of antibiotics. Drugs are not the answer.
I’m not doing this apart from the Wisdom of God. I KNOW God did not create drugs as some scientifically advanced new method for Him to heal. “As for God, His way is perfect! The word of the Lord is tested and tried; He is a shield to all those who take refuge and put their trust in Him” (Psalm 18:30). Think about all the costs and side effects of medication. Do you really think this is God’s “modern” way of healing, as if Him just speaking the Word and healing someone is no longer good enough? I have filed bankruptcy in the past because I couldn’t pay the $27,000 in medical costs I incurred for sinus surgery and other related issues (and I had insurance at that time!). That’s not the perfect way of God. Tamoxifen causes uterine cancer (among other things). Why would God use a toxic drug to “heal” someone (maybe) and give them another cancer with his scientific creation?
Next time you pick up your monthly supply of drugs, add up how much they costed (someone). And thoroughly read the side effects. Then ask yourself if this is God’s perfect plan for your life. How do your drugs make you feel? Are you cured or just putting a band aid on the symptoms. I’m for a drug-free America.